I was filled with a faith and trust so full there was no doubt. My mind chatter spoke with me, "you are saying that you are willing to let her die! how can you as her mum?"
I knew that if she chose to die, it was in perfection with a plan so huge there is no way my small mind could comprehend. I felt so peaceful, so knowing that even in my loss something would be found. All I had tried to do over the years to 'save' her had led her further and further into chaos, pain, utter madness! It was time to get out of the way and let go. Let God!! I jumped! no infact I didn't. This day to the moment just unfolded with me looking on as though through a window into some other world, someone elses life.
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