The day unfolded unbeknown to me how it was going to go. I suffered the usual stress of not knowing how she was today, the pain of wanting peace to prevail in her heart.
Sometime in the evening the calls began, I spoke lovingly, but firmly, all that was unfolding was just as it was meant, I had to get out of the way! I spoke "I love you, take care of yourself and I will be with you tomorrow". The response in her fear was anger, words to hurt, to scare, to pull me in. I hung up!
No more thoughts entered my head, most of you, as I would have in the past must be thinking how! How can you leave someone in this pain? What if they die? These were the words behind the forces of fear that had been consuming me for the past 3 years. The time had come to Surrender fully & completely.
I handed her over to a Love and plan so much greater than mine. In this moment I was Being Faith in God. How could I speak that I had faith, trust, connection, then in the most challenging of times in my life have fear in handing this enormous challenge over to the God I proclaim I unshakably believed in! I put my baby's life or death into the Heart of what we call the Divine.
This is beautiful Ashanti. I remember you talking about how you would share all this with the world. I am delighted to see this happening now.
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